I need a hug

[anne_d]

Or maybe a vacation, but I'm not likely to get either.

Kitty's been snapping at me because she's tired of cleaning her room, and I've been snapping at her because I keep catching her playing and making more mess when she should be working.

So I was in the cave, trying to show Kitty where to put away all the sketchbooks and notebooks she's been hoarding in her room. Then I discovered that they were all at least half-used, so I told her to tear out all the used pages, and then three hardcover journals fell on my left foot, at least two of them cover-edge side down, so I have a smashed and bruised foot now. I put an ice pack on it, but I suspect it's going to be swollen anyway.

Also I am feeling really bloated and PMSy and I didn't get any sleep to speak of, so I've been doing the important household chores, which must be done because after all, I don't get sick time. I went out and tried to run a couple of my "me" errands, but I'm really too tired to drive around safely. Not fair.

I wish I could just have a good cry and get it over with, but I don't even seem to be able to cry anymore, so it just keeps building up and building up until I explode at someone, who probably deserves it, but I feel guilty anyway, because I'm not supposed to lose my temper, I'm always supposed to be perfect hardworking mom, which Goddess knows I've never even been close to.

I shouldn't be complaining, because most people are worse off than me, but I am so sick and tired of my life right now, I can't even tell you.

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*many hugs*

[anne_d]

Right back at you. I've been reading your journal, and you and your daughter are in my thoughts.