Mar. 28th, 2017 11:52 am
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I've been reading more of Asimov's march/april 2017.
I'm up to page 107 and there have been two memorably interesting stories, but also two I skipped because I could see where they were going and no thanks.

Number Thirty Nine Skink, by Suzanne Palmer, had some lovely worldbuilding and felt packed with good bits.
The Ones Who Know Where They Are Going, Sarah Pinsker, is an answer to Omelas and I think will stay with me.

Three Can Keep A Secret was full of tricks but didn't make me feel anything.
Kitty Hawk... I know alternate history is SF, but, it left me vaguely dissatisfied and feeling like it somehow ignores that there's plenty of historical women that are not alternate. Eh, not my thing.

And then the skipped were and Invasion of the Saucer Men.
I mentioned before. There's an interesting story in the premise, but it's hers, not his, and it wouldn't look like this.
Invasion is just... Read more... )

I don't usually give up on stories, so, finding two in one publication is not awesome.

There's like another hundred pages to read so there's still plenty of room to be interesting.

I'm trying to stay awake long enough to finish the laundry and let the cleaner in, so I'm a bit grumpy right now.

I think I'd rather be reading fanfic. Always at least one bit of interest in fanfic.

... but not always suitable to be reading when employees turn up, so, I read other things...

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Mar. 27th, 2017 10:26 am
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I went to the library and looked at Which and chose a TV and bought the TV in a shop by talking to a human.
Now I feel blech because I spent a money and feel foolish for not being an expert on things I only buy very seldom.
But if I have bought a wrong thing then I shall try again, no problem, so.

I also paid for installation so they can make it work with the new fancy recorder box. The new things are Smart because all the new TVs are Smart apparently. I don't know why all things must be Smart now. It seems like more ways to go wrong. Why not just be a TV?

... I do not feel smart. I feel nauseous and tearful. I do not think this is a reasonable reaction to purchasing electricals though so I shall ignore it.

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Mar. 25th, 2017 05:46 am
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I am also not helpful because I can't figure out tumblr well enough to communicate on there.
I thought I said a thing but it is now not there.
So I'm basically just thinking helpful thoughts at the ether.
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I would like to be helpful

but I do not know how

and especially do not know what to say.

I mean things that have helped me include meditate, but there are many times when it is annoying to ask if someone likes to meditate. Like, it does not magic away all problems. Or many problems, really.

But it’s supposed to be a set of techniques for seeing what is going on with you. Like Resource Monitor but for the inside of your head? And if you get the hang of one of the pretty bits then you can make a nicer place in your head to hang out in.

So like guided visualisation isn’t going to fix actual housing problems, but it can make the inside of your head better decorated, maybe.

Read more... )

But then I don’t want to suggest it to other people because clearly it’s like a little paintbrush like for portraits, when you’re trying to get all the leaves from autumn tidied away sometimes. It’s not an everything sort of tool.

But it’s a nice place in your head when it works.


Mar. 25th, 2017 02:49 am
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It continues to puzzle me what fandoms latch onto about a character or pairing.
Or not puzzle, about the quality, just, why do they decide it's essence of those assholes?

Read more... )

The distance between the partnership they could have and the one they have right now is where the angsty drama tension lives, because what they want is thirty years of watching each other's back, and what they've got is thirty years of watching their back around each other. And wishing.

That's where the story lives, where they keep choosing each other and hurting each other, try as they might. And where we can hope for them to do better.

But reading the happily ever after as a given is sweet too.

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Mar. 24th, 2017 07:28 pm
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you know what I don't get about complaints of immigrants coming here for free healthcare?
people just say that and expect you to be annoyed
that people who are ill are being made healthy.

I mean, if they had to travel from another continent to get healthcare, they were probably in real need of healthcare.

Making people healthy is a good thing.

Yes I realise the part of the problem not stated is the long term underfunding of the NHS and the ongoing lack of resources and staff shortages
but without immigrants the whole thing would have ground to a halt long since
in no small part because of education policy over about a generation
and NHS funding is only one corner on a complex interlock of NHS, social care, and actually helping people enough they can get on with their lives and keep the money going round and round
and we really need to start talking structural stuff and numbers and proportions.

But no.

The root complaint is always, they come here and get well.


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Mar. 24th, 2017 06:46 pm
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Today my tablet computer is acting peculiar
it's all slidey and acts like the scroll bar up the side doesn't exist for tapping or pushing around or whatever.
It also won't highlight a selection of words by running your finger over them, which is going to be a big pain.

Don't know what to do about any of that except vaguely hope it fixes itself as mysteriously as it went weird.

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Mar. 23rd, 2017 06:02 am
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I have written 2500 words of fic

It is not the fic I set out to write
It is much more miserable and angsty
and I have only the vaguest idea of how to fix it.

also as a story it only very tenuously connects to those bits of canon I've managed to absorb as spoilers, and will be super jossed by next tuesday.

but I wrote quite a lot of words in a row, for me.

Only I think they'll piss off everyone? Like, they start with the teensy tiny unfortunate point that the OTP tend to beat each other up and knock each other out and so forth, and then, like, foregrounds that, and compares it to the relevsnt family history of abuse. and like, if people like the pairing, they probably don't want their problems all front and center like that? and if they don't like it then they wouldn't read. And it's doing stuff with time travel and memory that makes them not even the canon guys anyway, not exactly. and I'm not sure who in the world would read it and like it.

I should probably go back to the other much more naked idea I thought I was writing when I sat down. There's always readers for naked.

but I've got my characters stuck up the tree and now have very little idea how to get them down, which doesn't hardly seem fair. can't leave them like that...

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Mar. 22nd, 2017 09:45 pm
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I did a meditate again :-)
I cannot sit still. That is not a thing hat happens. But I can feel better about it, so that's progress of a sort.

We did the kindness meditation today and when we're supposed to think of someone that we like to see that makes us happy when they arrive I thought of the TARDIS.
... my brain is peculiarly organised, but you know, technically it fits...

I feel in a very plus good mood, but now it is time to read the news, because I put that off until after meditation on purpose.
Still. Got a nice reservoir of goodwill going on. Meditation is handy like that.

Legends of Tomorrow

Mar. 22nd, 2017 02:48 am
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I continue to not have access to the latest episodes until they're on DVD in the summer
and I continue to soak up all the spoilers and see all the gifs I can get on tumblr
which probably gives me a weird idea of the plot arc.

But I feel like some people are reacting to this episode without remembering its place in the season?
Like of course things get darkest, just look what episode number we're on.

I'm super tense because I don't know which way the writers will jump next.
Like they have so far done what I thought they were setting up, but what they do next depends on the moral alignment of the series, which, well, we can only wait and see.

What I would do though is about Mick even more. Like Read more... )

So as of right now it's tense and unpredictable because we don't know who the writers think the story is about. Does it stop being Mick's story now? Or do they follow through?

Honestly I just want TV to tell a hero story where the heroes live better than the villains. If being a hero just means endless epic misery then they're not really selling it as a lifestyle. Someone should do the right thing and get the right ending for them too. For once.

First Nope of these magazines

Mar. 21st, 2017 11:06 pm
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Started reading Asimovs, and on the first story found the first one I'm not going to read. by Will McIntosh

Read more... )

Analog march/april 2017

Mar. 21st, 2017 03:51 am
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Just finished reading the last story in this month's Analog.
Plaisir D'Amour, John Alfred Taylor.
It... seems very old school to me, and I was unsurprised to find the author started reading Analog when it was Astounding.
It's about a sociologist studying a mining ship full of genetically altered humans. He falls in love with a woman with four hands and knows it's doomed from the start.
Read more... )

Analog so far is readable, but not wow this month.
There was plenty I liked, but I had to go check the contents page to remember that, because nothing grabbed me and stuck around.

Still, plenty of readable stories and some good bits is plenty to get out of a magazine. I shall see what next issue turns up.

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Mar. 21st, 2017 01:09 am
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I just went through every drawer in the house trying to find my tape measure.
I mean logically not every everywhere, or I'd have found it, unless I somehow threw it out somewhen.
But everywhere I could think of.

Next time I am going to buy two and put one in my handbag and one in the sewing kit as all logic suggests I intended.

But for right now I have none
and so no idea which of the lovely dagger pattern waistcoat sizes I need.


But I know which colors I need. All. And not just because they're all black. This time I will have black and red and purple and when fashion unaccountably fails to provide dagger print waistcoats in the future I will still be able to make these last for ages.

And I did discover a still sealed snack stash that, judging by the sell by dates, I packed somewhat before the last time I visited the UEA library. Which was before I left college. Which was in 2013.

So that's a useful and cleanly bit of searching.

Albeit somewhat overdue.

And my UEA library book bag contained several smaller bags and a spare pair of dancing shoes, so that'll be handy.

... how is it I own so much Stuff but not the Stuff I am looking for whenever I look for it?

Ah well, steady progress, that'll do eventually.

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Mar. 20th, 2017 03:52 am
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Today fiction is just not working for me.
Like I don't know if I hit a run of nothingy stories or if I just didn't react to anything today.
It don't help that I was trying to clear out some older stories from my 33 page Marked for Later list; fixits for the first Avenger movie don't have quite the same emotional weight from here.

The one story I read in Analog had plenty of feels, or rather made plenty, by having its point of view character be relentlessly cheerful. Read more... )
It's not every story that can make winning handily and ending happy be something you go hide in fanfic to recover from.
Tony Ballantyne, The Human Way.

The physical copy of Analog is looking a bit the worse for wear. I read careful, but there's ink coming off the finger place on the back cover, and the thin covers are going a bit wrinkly edged. I haven't even finished it yet.

I know it's a magazine and probably thinks its ephemera, but I have copies from well before I was born, so I'm hoping to collect these just as careful. But I'm not quite sure they're up to that.

Shall see.

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Mar. 19th, 2017 02:19 pm
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Dreamed that there was like this huge bit of land that started having conventions run on it, and got built up, until there were like themed con hotels with associated events for every weekend of the year, but it got spooky on like Wednesdays when even the conrunners had probably gone home, but a whole bunch of people were still there. And between cons most of us were in costume. And then it was like, is this a Westworld situation or dis the cosplayers just go feral?

And then Ultron and Ultron attacked Data, though the Ultrons ended up mostly trying to conquer each other, and it turned out whatever the regular inhabitants were, a whole mutliverse of actual originals had a tendency to stop by.

And then I was running around trying to persuade cosplayers they were in real danger from these real multiverse travelling supervillains, and funnily enough I was not getting anywhere, so it was for a whole long stretch just one of those dreams where everyone ignores the fire alarm.

And then there was breakfast, and the random reshuffling of people there, and ending up at a table with 'Uncle Bester' in a B5 ground pounder uniform that still somehow left you in no doubt who he was. So dream me quietly left.

On to the next con hotel.

That was the country F&SF cons made, and for all its many appeals, wow was it stressful.

and three more

Mar. 19th, 2017 01:56 am
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analog march/april

Alexander's Theory of Special Relativity
About a relationship breaking up because only one of them changed.
I think it wrote the breakup too good because I couldn't see why they had been together in the first place or what they had planned for the future that they were now afeared wouldn't happen.
It was just like, now she tells the truth, and they don't fit.

Okays. Don't need a time machine for that, but okays.

There was a Men In Tie Dye Adventure. It thinks it is funny? I do not see where it is funny.

And then there was a quite good exciting one about football.
Ecuador vs the Bug-Eyed Monsters, by Jay Werkheiser.
It has people being people, football, and physics, all in one quick adventure, where you can see how the parts go together and belong there.
It left me wanting to do the maths though.
like, it sounds good, but if their thing works like that, I either worked it out wrong for my fight sequences in the other thing, or the measurements have to be a lot different, and then I want to do the maths.

Which as science fiction by high school teachers goes is probably a win on every front.
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The Host
author is trying to work through their issues with a super religious upbringing. fair enough. but I don't see how the science in this science fiction leads to this set of behaviour. I mean Read more... )

Violent, dark, murder and suicide and war with a futility of good intentions.
I disliked it quite a lot.

The Snatchers
A story with one character, plus the woman he stares at and describes physically for the first and last time of any character intro, and their tragic brief shag that leaves him feeling bad when she dies. Read more... )

Unbearable Burden
Suicidal artificial intelligence. Read more... )

On the whole I'm not having fun reading this set.


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Mar. 17th, 2017 07:26 pm
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Did a meditate at home
don't know how many minutes but it was 70 breaths before the don't even count them section and then some more time.
It is much harder without the bell bowl and the nice smell and someone doing the timings for you.

but the nice rug with the star performed correctly.
star in a circle is a good place for meditate.

maybe if I look up on youtube there will be a video with the bell.
also probably a lot of annoying people saying weird meditates, but you can't have everything.

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Mar. 17th, 2017 03:40 am
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Do you ever stop to think how utterly terrifying it would be to live in the DCU?

... it's nearly four in the morning and I have a headache, I have been thinking many things...

But like, all the things that we can argue about and treat as vague philosophical discussion? They live with.

Read more... )

But then, right, there's the fact we do have these discussions and ideas here. and people for millennia have wondered and been pretty sure all the gods and other sorts are for reals. and everything in the DCU is only meant to be a regular problem dressed up. so then there is entirely too much thinking, starting with how people can indeed entirely screw over someone else's existence without knowing or noticing. and then it's just...

four in the morning.

entirely too four in the morning.


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